dark days

it's gloomy out. foggy and drizzly. ordinarily a day i'd love to be curled up on the couch watching the newly released 'grey's anatomy' dvd. of course, i'm not at home, i'm at work. no one wants to constantly hear how much someone's job sucks so i won't go into that. but my near breakdowns at work have been a sight to see. there are my classic tells. the covering of the face with the hands constantly, the playing with the hair in a nervous way, the welling of the tears, the endless stream of "f*&%'s" and curse words, the snapping back at co-workers... it's ugly and i hate it. i can't sleep because i wake up in the middle of the night stressed out about things. all this over a totally piece of crap movie. why in the world am i doing this again? oh yeah, the cool people i get to work with. clearly my near breakdowns have been noticed because i've gotten three gifts in the past three days. and here's where we come to the happy part. first i got a huge basket of cookies, brownies, and muffins. damn they were good. then came the biggest bouquet of roses and lilies i've ever seen. they're smelling up the entire office and it's delightful. and then one of my favorite people bought me the most expensive bottle of italian lotion i've ever had the pleasure of slathering. wow. i don't love lotion but let me tell you about $100 a bottle lotion. it's delightful.