my stomach acid is eating away my inside

i'm stressed.
stressed because today the maryland kid was fired. i was in the room but my boss did most of the actual firing. i told him i couldn't do it. but then my boss ran out to a meeting suddenly because he was late and i was left holding the ball. it's the worst feeling. looking into the kid's eyes and just seeing the tears welling up and the hurt and confusion and utter sadness. man, that's hard to take. and how do you tell someone that we all just didn't get along? well, i said that personalities weren't "meshing" which is totally true. but man, the stress of knowing about the firing this week and today has killed me. all today my stomach killed, i was sweating, and i know my face has been breaking out. why can't i just take it in stride like my boss? i'm glad maryland's gone but i'll always remember the look on his face (like he'd been kicked in the stomach) when we told him he was let go.

but now i'm off to san francisco for the weekend. i'm sure that will make me feel better. because what's better than a gay pride parade, a hippie outdoor wedding, and a snooty palo alto coffee bar? not much.